She sat and smiled next to her long time lover. The only person that smile was for in which blood and pain hadn't caused it to arise from her lips. Anna scooted closer to Paulie and rubbed her now pregnant belly. Finally she was happy. Finally she had a reason to breath. But now she could see what it was like. How it was for those people she killed. Those million of innocent or not deaths caused by her own gun or hand. All of those who died had many things to lose, and she never had anything.

What was it like, to lose everything, when you just got it all? What was it like to feel pain? She dare not speak a thought out loud, but only smile at Paulie, who had no clue of what would be coming next. Even Anna herself had not known her next move until it was made.The sharp shooter rubbed Paulie's cheek with the back of her hand and kissed him, "We'd have a great family I bet."

Paulie nodded, smiling. Still unaware. Still in bliss. Still in the moment. But Anna and Paulie were in two different moments. Anna took the gun from her side, patted her belly again, almost due birth. In fact, that day was the due date. Before anything, she looked and Paulie one last time and whispered, while crying softly, "Thank you for letting me feel."
She then placed gun between her lips and pulled the trigger. What was it like to die, she thought again, Empty.


[ooc; it's not long, it's not great, but it gets to the point. I'm not gonna babble about detail and what not, I'm simply getting to the point. Maybe I'll rewrite it more articulately. Maybe... Also I just put the mood suffering because I like the little smiley. xD]